Underwater Ferriswheel♥
Missing Link To This Island Chain
I am losing my direction in life,
i don't know why, or i maybe i know,
over stressing myself?i can't stop doing it for it was what i always do,
just like when you fall, human have tendency to hold onto things around them to break the fall,
i was told that i'm thinking too much,
but when i think back, the problems that i'm stressing about, is actually the result of my action,
just like studying, i didn't put in much effort for chemistry and maths,
i got that kind of result, i thought english was okay for me, but no, i should have realise i'm in my O lvl year .
I'm trying to do all i can, but it's really tiring me out .
Then, i set my goal at the beginning of the year, chinese media and communication for poly?
I don't know what changes me, i became so indecisive nowadays,
i don't know exactly if i wanted that course, i don't know which is the best for me,
i know that can be talk about after O lvl, but i seriously need a goal and motivations .
Being a cancerian, i agree i'm sensitive, but i know the limit .
Life experience just show me so much about people around me,
it's probably true when someone who is quiet realized about things around them,
because when they keep quiet, they see more and sense more,
just like throwing pebbles into a river, when you throw a pebble into a flow of water at high speed, you don't see it anymore,
but when you threw it into a lake of calm water, you see the waves caused by the pebbles .
maybe i'm over sensitive, but i wonder if it was actually difficult to mean what we say?
Some people do, some people don't, and some, i know they don't mean it to turn out like that .
Whatever it is, seriously, i need that honesty and trust,
honesty to confirm that i still had a place in your heart,
for people will never want to lie to someone who is close to them,
i want that trust that you believe i wouldn't be angry because i know that you don't mean to .
i'm tired about things that are untrue, i'm so sorry for saying that .
I don't like to show my emotions in front of people, for i know it's stupid .
You wouldn't want to affect anyone just because you are affected,
the earth still rotate with you around or without,
life is in our hand and we take charge and be responsible of what we do .
God, please help me, i want to know the direction .





